&&yeah . Here ie m tonyt . Crying again . Bcus ie
just feel lyke it . Nahh .. If only ie knew it was
gonna end upp lyke tis . Ie wuldnt hav tired . Ie
wuldnt hav hoped . Ie wuldnt hav wished . Ie noe ie
promised tuhh ferget && let go of hym . But wadd m
ie supposed tuhh do ? How ? Ie awaes kip on tinking
of awl thaa tyms we were soo close with each other .
Now dhat its AMIRUL , tose tyms just kips on cuming
backk . Playing in ma mind . Ma hartx . Ma head . It
just hurts tuhh c , tuhh noe dhat e dunch even care
even thaa slightest bit . He viewed mie thru fs .
How was ie supposed tuhh stopp maself frem viewing
hym backk ? He was online just a while ago . Fer
quite sumtym . How was ie able tuhh stopp maself
frem just ignoring hym ? HYS MY BESTIE GODDAMNIT !
Ie do treat hym lyke one . As one . &&ie didnt
xepect awl tis i return . Ie asked hym . Y izzit
dhat hys avoiding mie . Dhen we went offline a few
mins aftaa dhat . Ie txted hym . Dhen he iplied ,
"I NT AVOIDING U LAH... LATELY I JUST BEEN BUSY WIT
MY TRAINING, MY STUDY AND MANY OTHER THING...FHM"
Y cant eu just include mie in tose maniee other
tings wen eu awaes used to ? M ie wrong tuhh sae
even dhat ? Cus eu werent lyke tis last tym . Afew
mths backk . Ue made mie feel as if ie was sum1
impt tuhh eu . Sumtynk ever soo impt in ur lyf .
But wadd happens now ? Im just NTH in ur eyes .
Just m NTH . NTH . Nort even a piece of shit ! Y ?
Wadd hav ie done till eu hav tuhh hurt mie soo
badd ? Did ie betray eu ? Did ie play wit ya feelings ?
Did ie do sumtynk wrong ? Did ie abandoned eu ? Did
ie ignore eu ? Did ie do sumtynk dhat totaliee piss
eu off ? TELL MIE ! TELL MIE LAR EH ! DUNCH PLAY WIT
MIE ! Please . Cus ie aint wanne c eu ending upp
lyke my poor ex whu wishes tuhh turn backk tym now .
Cus hys hurt mie in thaa past . Cus ie aint c mie
as nth dhen . Cus ie meant nth tuhh hym then . Cus
he aint appreciate mie wen ie was tere fer hym dhen .
Now he comes begging fer apology as soon as we're
friends . SPECIAL FRIEND dhat is . Ie dunch wanne
eu end upp lyke hym husaini . Ie just dunch . Cus
ie lurve eu soo dearly . Very very muche . Eu didnt
even txt mie nowadaes . Nort even a GD MAWNIN or a
GD NYT mxg . Haies . Its gonna b too late if eu decide
tuhh change in thaa future . Cus its fading . Thaa
feeling of lurve && hope dhat ie've placed on eu .
Its fading . &&yet its hurting evari now && dhen .
Tuhh c how muche eu dunch care . Now even abit . No
hartx . No feelings . Fer MIE . Fer EEZA . Cus ie
realliee nid it . Cus eu were thaa ferst guyy ever
tuhh replace my lost besties thru awl tis years .
Cus eu were tere wen ie nided eu . Wen THEY werent
tere in ma lyf yet . EU WAS AWAES TERE FER MIE .
TUHH MAKE MIE SMILE . TUHH MAKE MIE LAUGH . TUHH
SHARE MY PROBLEMS WIT EU . TUHH AWAES GIV MIE HOPE
TUHH MOVE ON IN LYF . Y did eu hav tuhh change ? Y
did eu hav tuhh go ? Y did eu leave mie lyke tis ?
Y husaini Y ? Ie miss eu alot . &&ie realliee nid
eu backk . Cus tings r starting tuhh fawl apart ever
since eu were fading awae . Ever since eu were gone .
WADD DO IE HAV TUHH DO TUHH MAKE EU COMEBACKK ?
WADD ? Please sumhow tell mie . Cus ie realliee nid
eu backk ryt now . Tears r falling cus it hurts tuhh
c tese werds being type in here again && again . &&
tuhh c dhat even till now , eu dunch care . Cus ie
realliee wish dhata eu knew how ie felt . &&&ure
gonna cry . Nort daring tuhh luq backk into my eyes .
Tuhh even apologise . Cus oniea dhen , eu'll noe how
muche ure hurting mie . By just simply IGNORING &&
STEPPING OUTTA MY LYF wich once blossomed again bcus
of EU =(
