Cus ie kip on saeing dhat im just soo fcukedd upp
wit tis cycle of lyf . TitiSAYAAANK blames herself
fer apit's death . While Afif died last nyt . Motor
accident . Samesame nan apit . Haies . dunch noe .
ie waited && waited tere . fer hym tuhh cumm .
fer hys call . fer hys msg . && wen ie did , it
aint a good one . hys mommy was awl crying && saeing
dhat hys been badd cus he shuldnt hav left mie dhat
wae . cus we're just soo close . too close . && now ,
hys gone too . Just lyke tose other ppl whu hav left .
Cus tis lyf aint mean a ting no more . &&ending it
just feels lyke thaa bestest ting tuhh do now . Y
does it awaes hav tuhh b tis wae ? Arepp was aldy awl
fcuked upp in msn todae . Early mawnin . &&Bummer
was soo concerned he tried tuhh cheer mie upp . But
im soriee it kinda didnt werk out . FafaDARLINGG &&
Azuan is officially off now cus she noes whu she
loves best . Cus she noe dhat shys just lieing tuhh
herself if she goes on wit thaa r/s . She didnt even
hav thaa confidence they'll even last dhat long .
oh .. Left phone at home wen came backk last nyt afta
received thaa fcuking badd new of afif . Changed &&
a'an offered tuhh send mie tuhh sgh tuhh c afif .
Cant seem tuhh refuse cus thaa oniea ting on ma mind
was afif . tuhh just c hym again . awl oke . But
it was tense dhen . thaa whole place . thaa whole
ting tere . surroundings . && dhat was wen ie knew he
didnt make it . hys gone awae now . leaving mie .
ANOTHER ONE OF MY BESTIE is gone now . && awl ie can
do is wadd ? cry it over && over again . Haies . Hols
were supposed tuh b thaa tym wen eu culd relax ur mind
aint it ? But y is awl tis happening ? Eu promised mie .
Eu promised tuhh awaes stae by my side . Tuhh awaes b
tere fer mie wen ie nid eu afif . Eu did . Eu promised
tuhh awaes make mie smile cus tese tears r just too
precious tuhh b shed . eu said as long as ure here wit
mie , ure make mie live life tuhh thaa fullest . Eu
promised dhat we'll go out on evari 5th , 15th && 25th .
Its awl mpty promises now afif . Eu noe dhat ? Eu've
broken it awl . HOW CULD EU GO AWAE WEN IE REALLIEE NID
EU DHAT NYT ? EU SAID EU'LL LET MIE CRY TILL IM SICK
OF IT . EU SAID EU'LL STAE UPP WIT MIE TILL IE CULD
AFFORD TOSE SMILES ON MA FACE AGAIN . EU SAID EU WULD
WALK WIT MIE IN THAA RAIN && HOLD MIE SOO THIGHT TILL
IM FEELING SOO SECURED IN UR ARMS . HOW CULD EU AFIF ??
HOW CULD EU JUST GO AWAE ? JUST LYKE DHAT ? awl im left
tuhh sae is ANOTHER ONE went awae last midnyt ; Cus im
done believing they'll stae . Cus that's just how tings
seems tuhh b . JACK , NAIM , BOB , AREPP , NAIFIAH ,
HUSAINI dhen EU . just rip oke ? promise mie eu'll b
heppi wen ure upp above . cus now , nth realliee matters .
tese NEW PPL just cant replace eu ppl dhat're gone .
y does it hurts soo muche ? it seems lyke ie wanne run
awae . tuhh sumwhr far far awae . awae frem awl tis
DISASTER . cus it just hurts soo muche . too muche . fer
a gurl lyke mie tuhh take it . ily AFIFBESHTIE :(
