♥ SUNDAE 25.01.09
Familie gathering was awes0me . T0qed mai hartx 0wt t0 cuzzyns ; Qaq Huda , Zu , Iqa nnd Qaq Fa . Qaq Nan nnd Waq Adah was dhere t0 advise us 0n eur riligi0n nnd trucql0ads m0re t0qins were d0ne dhenn . Qechiq "fainted" due t0 sum reas0ns wych ie d0nte tynq ie wuld wanne type it 0wt here . Bt it was funnfunn mitin mai cuzzyns . Chillin wit zu was greatt t00 . Familie's juxt d greatest (:
♥ M0NDAE 26.01.09
Familie 0wtin t0 SENT0SA . Ie s0w lurf d sunn d sand nnd d sea mann . L0ngg tym neva g0w sent0sa aldy xia . Miss d g0ddamn plc . Wee reached dhere 0lnie awl serbu d f00d until m0xt 0wf it fnish ??? Hha . Dhenn wenn in t0 nj0i d c0ld sea water uh . Nnd ie mean DAMN C0LD uh qae . Lucqilie dheres d SUNN t0 warm us upp . Thnqs mister sunn (: Hha . Qaq Nan nnd Qaq Yan damn rabaaaq . Tmrw mai bdae dhenn dheyy bully mie xia . Taqe d b0ya frem mie dhenn thr0w at each 0tha . As in pass t0 each 0tha byy thr0win it 0n air uh . Dhenn ie runn here runn dhere . Pnat . Ha0s plaqq tuu . Atlaxt gif upp wenn upp t0 maqan . Dhenn awl j0in mie . Plae freezbi wit dhemm s0w d gereq laa siaqq . Bt ie awaes miss it uh . Dhenn ie thr0w 0ls0 lyqe qanasai . Chibye . Hha . Dhenn wenn insyd again . Afta a wyle wenn 0wt t0 acc0mpanie Qaq Yan g0w seven eleven buyy sumtynqs wit Abg Faizul , Qaq Huds , Qaq Nan nnd Fidiyani . Dhenn reached d plc dhenn gawtt new b0ya an . Ape agye . Ti0p ms0q ah . Hha . Shivering lyqe hel aldy wee awl . Dhenn its tym t0 g0w h0mie . S0w l0ngg Sent0sa (: Fwee cable car ride bacq nnd f0rth as Paman Azen is werqin dhere (: Qaq Yan , Fidiyani nnd Anshari 0vernyted at mai h0mie . Nj0ied mai dae damn muche wit FAMILIE (:
Sdares , Q nnd Mus ; THNQS FER D EARLIE BDAE WISHES YA (: ♥ TUESDAE 27.01.09 ;
AMALINA NND MAI BDAE DAE! (: Q , Mus , Shy nnd Izmil came 0va . Nnd dheyy b0ught mie presents (: Thnq q babes nnd dudes . Q nnd Mus ?? B0ught mie G0RENG PISANG FREM D QDAI MAMA AT ALAMIN DHERE . H0h0 . Muachies babe (: Ie suqer sgtsgt . Abg Fazli came 0va t00 . Ard aftan00n wee wenn t0 ys safra t0 plae ph00l (: Hha . Damn qesh0s laa siaqq plae ph00l wit dhemm . Especialie Mus nnd Shy . T0 d max xia drg . Q hadd t0 wenn h0mie earlie s0w dhenn wee plaed a few games dhenn pr0cid h0mie . Ie tynq ? Hha .
Amalina , Bbybi , Shy , Mairah , Bibiq , Abg Fazli , M0mmy , Aqilah , Amira , Qaqaq ; THNQS FER D BDAE WISHES NND D PRESENTS (: App sgtsgt . Thnqs SMIQA! (: fer d superb funnfunn dae 0wt eventh0ugh wee didnt d00 anth muche (:
HEPPI SIXTINTH BDAE T0 EU T00 AMALINA (:♥ WEDNESDAE 28.01.09
Fafa , Eileen , Hisyam , Ms Lee , Amira babe , Sabrina babe , Ming Yang , Maia babe , Asiqin , Nanthini , Dian ??? , Mister Faizal(Suprisinglie!) , Li Ching , Sab sec three ; THNQS FER D BDAE WISHES NND D PRESENTS GIVEN YA (:♥ SQU ;
Damn al0tal0t pending h0mewerqs (MALAE ESPECIALIE!) bt im gladd im halfwae thru aldy . Slept in maths claz t0dae ?? Abitabit ah . Ie damn tiredd aldy uh . Whadd t0 d00 ? Hha . Peace (:
♥ FS ;
Wenn plae ph00l at ys safra bt tis tym wee plaed at d PTE wann . S0w d tarq biase siaqq . Qeq0q abes . Fuad , Amer , Mus nnd Irni was dhere tgthr wit mie . Nnd heyy! DRG BSAA PEIH QAQI GEREQS LAA SIAL! Hha . Seri0uslie uh . Damn qaqi gereq siaqq satuu satuu . Pecaa per0t ah chillin wit dhemm t0dae . Ie tynq ie misjudged dhemm =/ Nnd yeaa . Mus . Im staatin t0 lyqe Irni luh 0wqae . Dhe b0ley ajaq b0b0al peih 0rg uh . Dhenn ard f0ur plus pr0cid t0 np t0 mit Sherry . 0tw dhere . Wee five awl d wae qeqeq xia . Dheyy reli made mai dae mann t0dae . Dhenn Fuad blanja mie , Mus nnd Irni ch0c0lies waffle . Hees (: Muachies RASYID (: Hha . L0L-ing wit dhemm was s0w freaqin gereq laa si0l!
PS : Mus Twinnie ; Thnqs fer bein dhere - insyd d bus nnd thru it awl juxt hearing mie let 0wt whadds trapped in mai hartx fer quite sumtym ab0wt [insert name] . Ie qnew eu wuld undastand mie nnd ie thnq q fer n0rt being embarassed wenn mai tears ran d0wn mai chicqs , 0n d bus juxt nau . Ie tried mai bestt t0 h0ld bacq mai tears bt it juxt w0nte stand bacq . Ie lurf eu luh 0wqae twinnie . Eur d bestt mann . Ie fil dhatt eur mai sec0nd pri0rity dhese daes 0n . Nau dhatt [insert name] is n0rt here byy mai syde t0 listen t0 mai hartxbreaqs n00 m0re .
THNQS EYQ MUS . THNQS S0W MUCHE .♥ RS ;
Ya . Dhatt [insert name] pers0n is EU . Its Eu . Whum else wuld ie b0ther s0w muche ab0wt 0tha dhann eu . Nnd d fact dhatt d 0lnie reas0n ie even b0ther t0 type it awl d0wn here was bcus MUS T0LD MIE T0 D00 S0W . Cus eu n0e whadd ? Shys a real gud ferend . Whum wuldnt wann her QAQAQ nnd her BABE t0 split! Ie d0nte even tynq ie wanne type it awl 0wt . Mai feelings . Whadd eu've bin puting mie thru dhese daes . Cus im tiredd . Damn tiredd 0wf tis seri0us shyt att eur giving mie . Yeaa . S0w whadd ?? Even if it d0esnt matter muche t0 eu dhatt eur basicalie changing tis daes ; well , IT D0ES T0 MIE ?! Cus eur maqing mie damn fcuqin upset wit eu . Ie reli dunn0e HAU T0 MAQE TIS DAMN CLEAR T0 EU . Afta eu've read tis . D0nte even b0ther t0 mxg mie ab0wt tis er anth uh qae . Cus ie seri0uslie d0nte wanne fyt wit eu . Even d th0t 0wf t0qin tings 0wt irritates mie . Fcuqin ann0ying ah . Cus eu qept 0n saein eur 0wqae bt idts . Eu wanne sae N00 repeatedlie ? Dhenn g0w ahead ah . Ie d0nte even fil lyqe eu care anm if ie puj0q eu er n0rt . Whu m ie t0 eu ah ? Im eur fcuqin galf dammit! Treat mie lyqe 0ne ah xia abehh ape . Eu d0nte realise dhatt eur givin mie a hardd tym d00 eu ? Whye shuld ie even b0ther t0 tel eu dhenn ? We'll eventualie fyt nnd ie'll get s0w upset nnd d cycle g0ws r0und nnd r0und ; again nnd again . Yeaa . M a e b its tym ie realise dhatt ie fell in lurf wit eu . D 0LD EU . N0rt exactlie d eu NAU . Cus eu n0e whadd ? D EU NAU JUXT SUX T0 D DAMN FCUQIN C0RE MANN! Its reli hardd fer mie t0 c0ntinue living mai laef lyqe tis ya n0e dhatt . N00 . Eu d0nte . Bt listen upp .
It'll bee harder t00 live laef w/0 eu . Cus ie effing lurf eu t0 d max! BT WHADD CH0ICE D00 IE FCUQIN HAF NAU ? Ie cante tahan d fyts dhatt we're havin m0re 0ften dhese daes lyqe d wae eur laxt exy tahan ya n0e dhatt . Im n0rt dhatt qinda pers0n . Ie d0nte haf dhatt qinda patience ya n0e . Bt whye m ie stil here as eur galf ? Cus im tryin . Tryin hardd n0rt t0 breaq eur g0ddamn hartx . Im mie . Nnd ie lurf eu bt juxt cante taqe awl tis shyt n00 m0re uh bi . Tis is mie . Nnd tis is hau ie m . Im having a real hardd tym nj0in wit mai familie nnd ferends dhese daes wenn eur lyqe tis t0 mie . Nnd ie w0nte let eu qip 0n d0win tis t0 mie . Eu've changed . AL0T! Hell yeaa im pissed . Whu wuldnt bee ? Eu asq yaself . Asq D 0LD EU n0rt D EU NAU . Cus d eu nau juxt piss mie 0wf damn t00 muche . Nnd im fcuqin hatin it . Haix ): Im . Fcuqin . Tired . 0wf . Tis . Fcuqin . Shyt . Wenn eu tynq eu nid mie . Eu cum nnd fynd mie . Wenn eu tynq eu d0nte . Juxt leave mie . G0w . If eu tynq eu wanne mxg mie . Juxt mxg mie . If eu d0nte fil lyqe it dhenn d0nte even b0ther t0 d00 s0w . HURTS ? MUCHE ? Eu 0nce said dhatt t0 mie didnt eu . Nau eu n0e hau ie felt wenn eu said dhatt t0 mie ? If n0 dhenn leave it . Juxt fergeddit . PE0P ARD ARR BEGINNING T0 C AS IF EUR TAQING MIE FER GRANTED . Nnd im sl0wlie feeling d abs0lute samesame ting nau . Ryt nau . Ryt at tis freaqin m0ment . Ie d0nte fil lyqe im eur galf anm . Ie d0nte fil lyqe eu lurf mie anm . Ie d0nte fil lyqe eu care fer mie anm . Ie d0nte fil lyqe im sum0ne sepcial t0 eu anm . Ie d0nte even fil eu in mie anm . D00 eu ? Hha . Eu mean d werld t0 mie . Bt dhatt was 0nce up0n a tym . Tings chg nnd pe0p chg . EU CHG . Whu m ie t0 eu ? Im asqin fer d sec0nd tym . Cus ie fil dhatt im n0b0die t0 eu n00 m0re . Ie d0nte c mie in eu anm . Whu arr eu t0 mie ? Eur sum0ne ie lurf . Truelie . A guyy whum was 0nce mai bestferend whum ie trust s0w muche . Whum was awaes dhere fer mie thru thicq nnd thin . Whum was dhere t0 cheer mie upp wenn im d0wn . Whum was dhere t0 listen t0 mai hartxbreaqs .
Cus eur smyle maqes upp myne . Rmbr ? EU WAS DHATT SUM0NE T0 MIE . Sum0ne whum ie th0t wuld stae as a fairie tale in mai laef nnd pae careful attenti0n t0 mai hartx s0w dhatt eu w0nte breaq it er hurt it in anw . Dhatts wenn ie decided t0 gif EU nnd LURF a true chance t0 pr0ve mie wr0nq dhatt true lurf d0esnt exist in tis real werld . Cus ie juxt cante simplie undastand whye . Yes ah . Eu was d 0ne t0 built mie upp . At d samesame tym tear mie d0wn . Cus nth ab0wt us matters t0 eu anm ? Izit ? Ie'll taqe it as a yes dhenn . Nnd dheres n0nid fer eu t0 ap0l0gise er sae dhatt eu've read tis p0st . Cus ie n0e eu wuld dr0p byy . Dheres seri0uslie n0nid fer eu t0 tel mie eur reas0ns . Cus im tiredd 0wf hearing it . Im tiredd 0wf undasttanding it . Eu shuld n0e btr dhann t0 qip it fer mie awl tis wyle . Nasiq daa jady bub0h . D 0lnie ting dhatts left fer eu is t0 tynq ab0wt 0wr c0mplicate rs . TIf eu tynq eu wanne chg . Dhenn chg . If n0rt . Dhenn d0nte b0ther ah qae .
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Cus nth ab0wt us matters t0 eu anm ♥
