Sunday, March 22 @ 4:18 PM

Just wanne dedicate this post to Mus nnd Shy fr being there to wipe myy tears nnd listen to myy silent sobs . ii
really do appreciate it . Idn what ii'd have done if youu two werent there fr me . Thnqs Mus fr missing th stop just
to wipe myy tears fr me inside th train last night . Nnd Shy . Thnqs fr bothering to pm nnd talk to me after reading
myy pm in msn today . Thnqs fr hearing me out . Thnqs fr th advices . Most importantly . Thnqs fr caring . ii really
do appreciate what youu two have done fr me . Trying to cheer me upp . Talk things through with me . Understanding
me . Advicing me . Thnqs fr always wanting to be here fr me when ii need youu . Im just grateful that ii came across
people like youu in myy life . Thnqs fr encouragement . Thnqs fr th hope nnd faith youu gave me . Thnqs a million .
To youu , yes . Youu indeed broke myy heart . Real deep this time . Youu left me crying fr two nights . Plus this
morning . All those happy times we had seemed to fade now . Whats left inside me is a heart which youu have
broken into small pieces . Real small pieces which ii find it hard to piece it all back . Shattering myy dream which
was to always make youu happy nnd proud of me . Everything that ii had done . Myy hope . Myy faith . Myy trust .
Fr youu . ii donte know if they're still there fr youu . Little indeed . ii thought that even if th rose wilted . 0ur love
would still be standing tall nnd strong . Til th end . It still is . But idn if its standing tall neither is it standing strong
at this point of time . Idn if im standing strong fr youu til now or not . Youu really seem to be loosing yourself . Youu
once told me that youu needed time to find th old youu back nnd ii said that im willing to give youu all th time in
this world , that youu need . Nnd ii've never brought that topic up again . Bt im beginning to wonder if you'll even
find your old self back . Im beginning to wonder if im th one fr youu . Til when do ii have th strength to keep going on
with youu . Til when youu will eventually do to me what youu once did to her . Cause ii wish you knew how ii felt .
Then you're gonna cry . ii thought that this tears would always be dry as long as you're right here beside me . But ii
guess ii was wrong hah . Youu didnt know how myy heart kept yearning fr youu to come back to me those times when
we were having these arguments . Til now . Nth from youu . Maybe one day . You'll feel how hard nnd unbearable th
pain us to get up one morning to sense that th other half of youu is not there to keep youu through your living days .
Cause without youu . ii feel as if th other half of me is gone . To wake up one morning with a heartcut in youu when all
youu did was a small nnd simple mistake that left th one youu love soo mad . Unbearable pain inside youu that youu
wouldnt be able to shake it off that easily . To wake up one morning to cry in bed th next second as if th world youu used
to live in has tumbled down infront of your eyes nnd all youu could do was NTH . To wake up one morning to feel how
weak youu are without her being by your side to wipe your tears nnd console youu to cheer youu up . Cause youu will
never understand what youu have done to me . By just knowing that youu made me cry in the train last night is not
enough . Never enough . Never will . To have your hope up high nnd fr someone to smash it down in just a few seconds
with just a few words . Hurts . Nnd ii realise that im just a girl whom had her hopes too high . Aagain nnd again . As
ii thought that things would be different this time . Yes . Maybe after this . Imma still have myy hopes high fr youu .
Cause youu dont know just how much ii love youu . Youu dont . If youu think that by reading this . Youu feel how hurt
ii am . How hurtful it is to read all this words . Think again . About me . To have been th one to go through it . As im
beginning to think nowadays . Im nth in your eyes . Maybe this is just a simple game to youu . Maybe just a simple
game in your eyes . But let me tell youu somthing . In this game . ii have bet myy heart on it . ii thought youu'd
treasure it . This unperfect heart of mine . ii just thought that youu promised me . This would never happen again .
Bt youu broke it . ii was wrong . Really wrong . Thnqs . Fr everything .