Afte sow long owf nhort online-ning && checking myy mail , ii finalie checked myy mail ytd && chatted w myy mates juxt a while agow . Ryndu babe ryndu . Ryndu gler babeyyyyyyyy sama ini SMIQA ~
Haix . Niwaee , anthr tiring dhae . Bt njoi rbkk oke ? Bnyakk lahr akuhh punyr narq start blajah smlm . Bsokk bsokk . Janji janji . Knekk ahr bsokk . Saturdhae Danny nyek pit . Sundhae firm lepakk rbkk dohh . Haish .
ii whanne watch
you're beautiful again again again seii . ii realli miss dhe crew andd dhe drama andd dhe funny scenes andd dhe saddsadd scenes andd evritynk uhr .
Bt nehmind , ii wil watch as maniee dvd as possible , tuhh avoid watching
you're beautiful . Latr ii addictedd tuhh it lyke twilight dhat tym . Hehs . Oke lahr . Whanne gow watch dvd nau . Chiaos .
&& Ainn , cheer upp oke (:
Tuhh ue , NHORT ANGELENE OR A--- LAHR OKE ! : ii juxt wish ue kno hau i'm feeling . I'm realli realli disappointedd in ue ahr . Hahha . Even Angelene andd Myra kno abt dhis lahr oke . Dhey saw hau ii was realli abowt tuhh cry wen dhey asked me whadd happened btwin us . ii realli feel lyke crying , even nau lahr oke . It's oke fhor me tuhh post dhis cos ue rarelie read myy blogg synce ue are reallie wrking veri hard ryt . Even if ue happen tuhh read dhis , it's gd , cos dhen , ii dhun nid tuhh explain anyth tuhh ue . Whye i'm acting dhis whae twerds ue nau . Bt ii see dhat ue dhun even realise dhat ii hv changed . Or isit ue dhun whanne acknowledge it ? Rmbr dhe dhae wen ii told ue dhat ii needed mney realli badlie tuhh pay myy fcuking overdue bill ? Did ue kno dhat ue was dhe ferst person ii mxg ? Cos ii thot dhat ue wuld du anyth andd evrith tuhh help me , as a sister . Bt ii was veri wrng lahr ryt ? It was realli hard fhor ue tuhh even atleast ask eur parents if dhey culd help me ryt ? Du ue kno hau deep myy hart sank wen ii asked ue abowt it andd ue simply said dhat ue frgot tuhh ask dhem andd dhen , ue nvr even ask dhem aftr dhat ? ii hadd tuhh beg ue , smeone whum col herself as myy sister , tuhh help me . It's oke if ue realli did try tuhh help me , bt ue didn't even try . && ue kip on asking wen ii am gonna payy fhor eur lost tee ? Hahahahahaha ~ If onlie ue culd realli look into myy eyes juxt nau , ue wuld see hau ii was gonna burst owt dhere andd dhen . * tears cming owt * Dhis tears andd disappointment dhat is in me bcus owf ue , it's been dhere fhor a while nau . && ii can confidentlie saee dht ue dhun even hv dhe slightest clue abt it . Cos i'm too used tuhh being frank w ue ryt ? Realli , ii dhun wish tuhh face ue animree aftr dhis . Synce ii've gotten myy tings bck frm ue . Until ii hv eur mney fhor eur tee , ue cann be suree tuhh nhort expect anitynk frm me . Frget our fs oke ? Yes , akuhh emotional . Cos , myy sister realli broke myy hart . Org laen , cube sedaye upaye drq untkk tlg akuhh . Kauu ? Didn't even try . hahaha . Tkpr tkpr . Frget abt cntcting me wen ue get eur nxt payy oke . It's oke . ii dhun nid it animree .
ii wish ue knew hau ii felt .Labels: dhen eur gonna cry .
